How does a person stop being an idiot? Asking for a friend…a friend that is me. You see, I seem to be stuck in this cycle of being said idiot, and I do not like it. This cycle is drinking too much beer all weekend and then feeling like total shit come Monday morning. I am off today, which is good and bad. Had I been working today, I would not have had so many beers yesterday. I would have probably gotten up before work, gone to my overpriced but oh so gorgeous gym and had a good sweat session.
Instead I laid in bed on the verge of tears because I am 1) mad at myself for going down this road YET AGAIN and 2)I am having (again) a really, really, really hard time living in Vancouver. Now, nothing against this city and those of you who love it. It is gorgeous and so pretty and blah blah blah. But I have been here for ELEVEN years and I still feel like I just don’t “fit in” here. Like, we were just in Puerto Vallarta and I felt like I belonged there more than I ever have felt here. Probably because I was at the pool all day getting tan and drinking margaritas…which is also probably why I am so bummed out these past few days.
There is really no point to this post, just me kind of venting hoping someone will comment something that is wise and revolutionizes the way I am thinking about living here. Because honestly, I will likely be living here for a long ass time. David has a good job, and moving back to the USA is a whole thing. Immigration aside, it is a little cray down there right now. That being said, I would move there in an instant if the opportunity presented itself to us. Say, a professional house sitting job in Palm Springs? That would be an offer we could not refuse.
But for now I am going to sip on this coconut cafe au lait that Gwyneth Paltrow heard about from her friend, Jessica Seinfeld, and is on page 55 of GP’s cookbook, It’s All Easy. It is essentially bulletproof coffee without the butter. I promise you GP knew about this before, but when Jessica was like “Oh, Gwyn, you simply must try this recipe I invented,” GP just went with it like “omg you are a true culinary genius.” Guys, it is coffee with coconut oil. A drunk person probably invented it cause they thought the coconut oil was sugar or something. Anyway, it is pretty tasty even if it has more calories than a tall PSL.
Thanks for letting me vent, internet.